Monday, 1 October 2012

Wide Awake

You know when you've been awake since 2.42am and you've tossed and turned for hours and hours yet you still can't get back to sleep - that.
I've had a variety of things go through my head... I've pondered blogging. Whatever happened to Blogging? Where did everyone go? Whatever happened to Dr Maroon? I'd really like to know what happened to him. Are there so many social forums now that I can't be bothered to use any of them? Should I write a post about nibs for my calligraphy blog? Should I forget about blogging altogether? But then I would miss people... I feel somehow connected through bloggers. And this book I've started reading... is it really worth the effort - The Story of You by Julie Myerson - am I going to get to the end feeling strangely traumatised yet none the wiser, as is often the case with books in this genre? Who was it that wrote the The Disappearing Act of Esme Lennox? I need to know who wrote it... I need to know now...

And other thoughts go round in my head until it is 3.42am and then 4.00am... and then I think I ought to give up trying to do the sleep thing and get up and make tea and have a cigarette and Google Esme Lennox - Maggie O'Farrell - of course! Now that was a book worth reading... and it was The Vanishing Act of Esme Lennox... not disappearing.

89 comments:

  1. Blimey, Scarlet! That moving business must have shaken you up.
    Now, of course, I have to look for Esme Lennox...
    (And a post about nibs would be good.)

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    1. Dinah: I will do the nibs post... I will do it today... after I've gone back to bed and then gotten up again... because I'm feeling snoozy now.

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  2. Hello:
    These sleepless nights cannot be doing you any good, as your mother would surely tell you!!

    After all your recent traumas where moving is concerned you probably will not want to give this a go as a way of inducing sleep, or possibly boredom. Try arranging all of your own furniture in houses belonging to friends. It is exhausting, we assure you! But better for you than the ciggies!!

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    1. Jane and Lance: Maybe I will do the furniture arranging in my head... maybe thoughts of this will calm my stormy head.

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  3. Bet you've fallen asleep now :-(

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    1. Mr Bene: Indeed! I am asleep and I dreamt that I got up really early and wrote a dreary post about not being able to sleep...

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  4. Re blogging--it started out as quite a small coterie, got picked up in mainstream media, the floodgates opened, and SexyGirl7000 started posting photographs of her dinner.

    Then, a couple of years ago, it contracted. SexyGirl7000 went to Facebook, some elder statesmen and women of blogging gave up, a few new people joined, and now we're back where we started. I enjoy reading and writing blogs greatly. The mix of intimacy and the possibilities for the discursive expansion of an idea, a worry, a moan, a joy, are a constant pleasure.

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    1. Mr Looby: Discursive expansion... on my blog????? Well, it'd give me something to aim at.

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  5. I like the tennis match conversations of blogging. Once in a blue moon you actually meet these people and it can be quite gratifying. You never know!

    Next time, try a little warm milk and honey. Boy, that knocks me right the hell out. Shuts down the maddening thought stream.

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  6. Mr Banish: ...yes...and the warm milk recipe works even quicker with a dash of whisky..
    You see, this is why I need bloggers in my life... to remind me of important ingredients such as this.
    Sx

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  7. For the Wide Awake thing, I get up and go look at stuff on the computer for a while. Since friends are scattered across multiple time zones, there is always something interesting to read -- like your posts!

    PS: Miss Scarlet's nibs are always an appreciated topic!

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  8. Mr Lax: That's what I did... but nobody was there *uncontrollably sobbing*
    I think I'm a little over tired now.

    Yes... we should all have a tinker with my nibs :-)

    Sx

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  9. Try listening to BBC World Service - this am there was a cheery programme on about an incurable disease and a homosexual married couple.

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    1. Mr Nikos: Or I should have sought out my copy of Reinsurance in Practice by R.J Kiln... I don't know anyone to of got passed the first two sentences without hitting their head the desk.

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  10. oh, dearest scarlet! i have been overwhelmed by work and have neglected blogging. *sigh* fb has been easy because i can keep it open while i'm working, but it's not the same. re doc maroon, who knows what happened. he was around and then he was gone. does mrs. pouncer know? i haven't seen her in ages, either! don't leave blogging, sugar. xoxoxoxox

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    1. Savvy: Facebook is a dangerous place... I've found that if I ignore it for the first part of the morning then I am a lot calmer and get more done!
      Mrs Pouncer seems to have vanished as well... she is probably somewhere, in some guise or other.... but I would love to know what happened to Dr Maroon - he was such a charmer.
      Blogging keeps me sane - so I doubt I'd ever really give it up.

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  11. Do what I do - do not sleep at night, sleep in the afternoon. And when i woke up at 16:30 this afternoon in the shack next to the bookmines, I found the door standing open. I usualy close the door when I go into my room to take my clothes off and sleep. Maybe it's about time for a little paranoia attack.
    I simply like blogging, reading what other people allow me to see of their lives. Kind of voyeuristic exhibitionism.
    I hope you'll sleep well through the coming night, dear Ms Scarlet, I have to start some serious work now.

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    1. Mr Mags: Your life is taking on the feel of a novel in the genre that I have decided to avoid - you can fill the gap!!

      Sx

      P.S I slept better last night - although I did wake at 1.20am - but thankfully I got back to sleep.

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  12. what happened to spinsterella too?

    as a insomniac with great personal experience I offer you these words of advice,
    i have found nothing that works
    very well
    except
    continuing to breath.
    (-:
    If you're doing that no problem,
    then if you're awake you're alive
    anything else is just icing

    and the other thing to remember, is never to listen to advice,
    especially from those with great personal experience
    x

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    1. Zig: Well, yes, this is true! And the wild life is more interesting in the early hours. An owl nearly landed on me once when I was outside having a cigarette. This wouldn't have happened at any other time - I felt quite privileged.

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  13. Mattress topper for you ducks! Five inches thick and a Telegraph offer. What's stopping us?
    God that sounds like Spam.

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    1. Pat: I am sorely tempted! And if I remember later this afternoon... then I might...

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  14. Oh, do I know the feeling. Waking up in the small hours, my head full of totally pointless thoughts like who invented marmalade or will I get stuck in traffic on the way to work? Why can't I just dismiss these silly thoughts and go straight back to sleep? Because my truculent brain has other ideas, that's why.

    Tonight I'll probably wake up thinking, I wonder if I should read The Disappearing Act of Esme Lennox? And who invented scissors?

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    1. Nick: I know... it's not like my thoughts were struggling over anything important or truly worrying... just stuff.
      I will find the answer to the scissors question before going to bed tonight to avoid further consternation.

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  15. Tried masturbation sweetie?

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    1. Mr Anon: Indeed, thoughts of banking can be effective!

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  16. On a purely selfish note, if your getting bizarre thoughts during sleeplessness is what it takes to get a post out of you - I'm all for it ;-)

    Apparantly asking what's it all about, where did it all come from, why am I here, who did THAT post and the like is being fundamentally human and darn healthy. So keep it up chuck.

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    1. Wendy: Getting up and blogging is a constructive thing to do when sleep doesn't come easy... so it might happen again!

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    2. Or you COULD whip up a little something for the Kitchen Queen Contest.

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  17. I have an infallible get-to-sleep technique. Trying to remember what it is works every time.

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    1. Tim: If this unique technique ever fails you then get yourself a copy of Reinsurance in Practice by R.J Kiln - sleep insurance.

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  18. I sleep about 4 hours a night so I can relate. I've been thinking about giving up blogging a great deal recently, but decided I'd only do it if I was replacing it with something better. So far I haven't found the something better. :D

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    1. Mr Joey: Crikey, I don't think I could manage on 4hrs... my eyes go sort of whirly... and I get snappy.
      Don't give up blogging! Do it in the night when you're not sleeping!

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  19. I find that a couple shots of Nyquil, followed by a hot bath, will make one sleep. :-)

    Blogging has changed. People come and go quickly, and in some cases, we will never know what happened to them.

    It's a young man's game, as they say in the film noire.

    Glad to see you're here.

    Pearl

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    1. Pear: This morning I have the opposite problem... now I can't wake up...
      Everyone is fast and furious these days... pleased to see you here too!
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    2. Apologies Pearl: I am so not awake that I am fumbling over the keyboard and not making contact with my 'L's!
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  20. Lack of sleep....lack of alcohol! Simple! x

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    1. John: Indeed... I don't know why I didn't just get up and have a shot of whisky.

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  21. Waves... I've got a CD playing the soft sounds of waves as they die on a tropical beach. And I do the breathing thing at the same time. I count when I inspire and count when I expire. Sometimes in patterns (breathe in 1-2-3; breathe out 1-2-3-4-5 or other pattern), sometimes randomly (different pattern with every breath). It might not work the first time but with practice... well for me it's magic!

    I've also lost a couple of blogger friends. Pooff! They just dissapeared. No goodbyes. They even deleted they email account. CRAP! But I don'T hold it against them. Sometimes, life just happens...

    Hugs
    Jon

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    1. DeepBlue Jon: I struggle with sleeping along to any sort of noise... my brain jumps around like a cat on a hot tin roof when it's dysfunctional... and the more I try to calm it the more bonkers it gets.
      I know what has happened to most of my bloggy friends... but Dr Maroon bugs me. I ponder him... his exit wasn't quite right.

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  22. I know what you mean about all the forums. Social media friends keep telling me I must do Instagram and Pinterest and Twitter as well as blog but that is work to me. For a lot of people its energising. I do enjoy the outlet of blogging - and the people you "meet" URL - it lets you work your thoughts into a "story" of sorts.

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  23. Jody: Pinterest is fun! You can ignore it for weeks and nobody seems to mind... I struggle with Twitter, I have an account, but I rarely update... Facebook is like some sort of noisy juggernaut with a constant stream of traffic that I can't control... but some of the ex bloggers now only do Facebook, and I like to keep in touch.

    I wish I could write a decent blog post.

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    1. An indecent blog post is more fun

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    2. Kev: I will take some pics of my bum again...

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  24. We do live in a world of overload (I'm a fine one to type after my last overblown blog - I'm putting it down to the guilt of not putting anything out for a month – Note to self I must keep blogs briefer). I have yet to read a tweet that I have felt worthwhile (I had high expectations of Stephen Fry’s tweets and those turned out to be the same turgid waste of space….) since Facebook seems to be going the same way – short statements about nothing important (OK probably better than my long statements about even less) I’m just going to stick to blogging.

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    1. Mr Logs: My Facebook stream seems to whiz by... and I only have 75 friends.... it's like watching a conveyor belt... something will grab my attention and then before I know it it's half way down the screen and the moment is lost... I'm just not good with Facebook.

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  25. I see your problem now.
    You're missing an 'e' from your tipple! :¬)

    xxx

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    1. Mr Maps: Stop confusing me with spellinges!!!

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  26. I haven't gotten used to this being the insomniac half of a couple yet. All the usual activities (playing the harmonium in bed, making a life-size model of Yvonne de Carlo out of matchsticks, that sort of thing) disturb The Small Object of Desire's sleep. I think that's why I'm starting to drift back into blogging.

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    1. Kev: Well, it's nice to see you back in my comment box for whatever reason!

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  27. If I can't sleep, I just lie there and relax. If I'm worrying, I play games or read on my iPhone. Getting up, making a cup of tea and drinking it, then going back to bed sometimes tricks my mind into thinking it's bedtime again. Otherwise, the decision to get up sometimes makes me sleep, but it has to be a genuine decision, so it's usually made at a time when, if I don't get up, I'll be late by the time I wake again.

    Actually, you can function surprisingly well on hardly any sleep.

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    1. Z: I am a grumpbag if I don't sleep... and the following day my eyes go all swimmy. I need sleep... and usually I get it.
      I did wonder if you were up when I was up!

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  28. OK, here’s the secret. Clench then relax each muscle in your body, one by one, in time with your breathing. Start from your big toe, left foot, and proceed up to your scalp. It’s guaranteed to wor

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    1. Tim: Right, I will try....

      Big toe.... left toe.. scalp... right han

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    2. Don't try this at home if you suffer from explosive flatulence!

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  29. You impress me. Or depress me. I'm not sure which. You can't sleep and blog about it casually and get 50 comments. I write a small novel at my readers request and get maybe 2 comments on each chapter. There are still bloggers out here. The weak went to Facebook. The desperate to be hip went to Google+. And the hopelessly out-of-touch went to MySpace. You're in the right place. 50 comments is pretty damned good. I don't know if I've ever gotten 50 comments on anything.

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    1. Mr Steve: Ha ha!!! Google+, hip??????? Lonely more like!!!
      Yes, I think I will always like my blog space best...but remember half these comments are mine!!

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  30. You and Mr. Peenee are on the same wave length today.

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    1. MJ: Indeed we are! I have spent 10 minutes trying to subscribe to Mr Peenee's blog... but my Google reader won't let me... it keeps telling me his feed doesn't exist... which is all rather distressing.
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  31. Update on toppers: the Telegraph one is out of stock till Oct 29th. Have orderd one nevertheless.

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    1. Pat: I have been in conversation regarding the topper... negotiations are imminent.
      Hopefully I will get one too.

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  32. It's weird isn't it? I've been blogging since 2006 and I seem disconnected from it lately. It's as if Facebook is sucking all my energy from blogging now.

    Boo.

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    1. Ms Roses: Yes, Facebook is suckering. I have now put it firmly in it's place... blog first... Facebook if I have the time.

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  33. Buy some Karms Night I take two every night with a glass of whiskey and ginger, warning may cause erotic dreams! Oh yes, last night I dreamt I was Jimmy Saville play thing, "Jingle Jangle" I woke up laughing. Failing that get Mr Blue to stun you with a brick.

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  34. Mitzi: Don't give Mr Blue any ideas...

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  35. Dr Maroon lives on in and around the bars of certain Glasgow bordellos. He passes on his sentiment to you and asks if you are still the giddy but rather intelligent bimbo that you appear to be.

    Scarlet who? was my reply.

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    1. Mr Files: Did he make any mention of a Moscow Mule and a Sherbet Fountain???? Oh bless him. Happy days.

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    2. Actually he did, but he was much more gentle with his description. You do gush, but more like a sprinkler than a fountain. He was spot on about you being a Vodka donkey though.

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    3. Mr Files: I blame the recession... a fountain costs 5 times as much a sprinkle these days. Shocking.
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  36. I don't suffer from insomnia, only from the ability to sleep too much, not sure if there is a medical term for it.

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    1. Jody: Coma?? I swing dramatically from insomnia to coma... as is evidence by the sporadic updates on this blog...
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  37. I'm glad you blog whenever that is I always look forward to a post popping up from you. As a fellow insomnia sufferer I know how draining it can be. x

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    1. HappyFroggy: Bless you! The coma side of it is pretty draining as well. Am now imbibing blueberry smoothies... which supposed to sort out everything.... the blueberry smoothie may even bring about World peace.

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  38. Obviously the reason you're not sleeping is the lingering guilt and remorse over cheating your way to victory in the 1983 Budleigh Salterton Scrabble Championship, and the dreadful misery of runner-up 11-year-old Bunty Gridlock.

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    1. Nick: Ack, I gave Bunty a blueberry smoothie... just the other day, as it happens, therefore I am now guiltless and remorseless.
      Yay, for the blueberry smoothie!!!!

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  39. I blame the pink brushed nylon nightie.....

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  40. Mr Beastie: I know you do... even though I keep telling you to switch to poly-cotton.

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    1. I've seen Mr. Beastie in his pink brushed nylon nightie.

      Did you know it's trimmed with marabou?

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    2. ...the whole of Mr Beastie is trimmed with pink marabou... last time he visited the flamingo park there was a terrible kerfuffle.

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  41. Is "blueberry smoothie" an euphemism?

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  42. Mr Von Lax: It might be one day.... I'm sure it won't be too long before it worms itself way into the euphemism dictionary, which I may add, is long overdue an update. My edition is 1996... so is missing such gems as 'spontaneous spread' and, more importantly, 'pillow fluffing'.

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  43. Oh bless you! I will have to listen tomorrow now as I have disconnected myself from the main pc.
    I am a frazzled mess on the sofa and looking forward to writing a post entitled Fast Asleep.
    Sx

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  44. Sleep well m'dear. Insomniacs rule my world: Mistress MJ, Z, you ... von Lax is also suspiciously early sometimes ...

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  45. I'm with you Scarlet! What did happen to blogging??? I got sucked into a vortex of housebuying and internet dating hell.

    Still there technically.. must get back to blogging....

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